~ A day that work for six n half hours only ~

It was a rainning morning today~ Wahh~ I felt like don wan to get up from my bed!! (^U^) Bcause it's too comfortable to sleep in the rainy day~ hehe...

In light of this,my movement is slower than usual... It was 8.05am when i went out to the bus stand(normally,the bus i take arrive by 8.00am) OoPppSss,I definitely will late to work... Sorry,BOSS!! (^^,)''

Without doubt,I'm late about 20 minute to reach to my office~ "Paise".. "Paise"...

At 12.10 noon.our manager fetch me n Anna n TK to Hospital KL to visit Christine...When v reached there,v found that most,if not all of the parking areas r for"KAKITANGAN SAHAJA"... How about the visitor?! (X_x) Haizz....The manager took the risk n drive in to that area to find a parking place...(V had driving around the hospital for around 30 minute juz to find a VISITOR parking place!!) But then,the security guard keep telling us with a terrible Malay pronouciation..."Tempat ni untuk doktor,dia pegi lunch,nanti saya kena o..." Our question for him is"Where can we find a visitor parking area?" The STU guard juz keep saying that ...

Finally,v had found a "PRECIOUS" parking...n it's quite far from the ward v looking for.V had found Chirstine...N she look very sick n pity~ (T.T) HaizzZZ...She told me that she will feel very pain with each of her movement~ N she is unable to stand or sit now temporarily~ I saw hers tear when talking with her... Yes,i can feel hers suffer from terrible pain... Really sincerely hope that she can get well soon!! That y, i keep telling her that she muz be strong!!Ganbateh!!Keep encourage her n giv her some mentally support!!Hey,girl,faster come back to work la...!! V miss U ler~ \(^u^)/

At the night,same as usual,online n write diares~ I'll discuss with my bf about the vacation at next month... hehe~ hope that he'll agree with me la~

Today issue is >>> My contract almost expired (4th JUN),will my company extend the period?? Cause if not,I'll hav to find job AGAIN!! But,what kind of job is suitable for me after a office job?? (P/S: Strictly NO MORE PROMOTER!!) Besides,my course will start at AUGUST.. I need a temporarily but well-paid job... (my saving still not sufficient to afford my course fees T.T )

BluE MoOdy ~

I had not write my diary for almost a week.My right leg got sprainned twice times a day at last friday.That was a terrible pain.Who beside me at that time? ... My family. My father applied the "tie da" for me everyday.Perhaps I'm really careless while walking.I should learn to walk again,Juz like a BB.

In this week,I keep on busy for my job.Nowadays,I'm not just help logistic deparment,but the almost the finance and admin department.My duty is heavier than previous times,and having the job that cant finish everyday.Furthermore,my contract had extended for 2 more months.They need more assist due the absent of my friend,another staff,Christine.Work and Work and work... It's a busy week for me.The chance to meet with Mr. Faith also became lessen.I think i had know his name.Maybe is Alvin,if i not mistaken.Sometimes,when he had to deal with our department,he will pass by our department area.As a result,he definetly will pass by my site,If this happened,I'll become nervous and cant focus anything except his face.I have to pretend as usual,although I had lose my attention on the current duty.I admit that feeling,but i'm not in love with him.I just like to look at his face.Is a comfortable and a feeling that hard to describe.I swear,i doesnt do anything that guilty to my boyfriend.

Our planning to have a vacation seem not so smooth.When i SMS him to discuss about it,I failed to contact him.The reason he gave me for not replying my SMS is his handphone had some trouble.Well,I accepted that without doubt.From day to day,I felt more lonely since we started together.I continously asking myself,Why cant he spend more time with me? I didnt require more.But he really dont has times for me...We have been not see each other for more than 3 months,while we stay not far.We also seldom SMS,he always SMS me at midnight.Although i very tired at that times,I still force myself not to sleep,I wan to chat with him.I know the moment we can chat together is less n less,so i dont wan it to become from less to none.But,i wondering if he had the same way of thinking with me? Am I very stupid? Everyday... Every night... I'm waiting for his SMS or call (although i know it's impossible..) Perhaps I'm really stupid,since the day we meet each other,I'm a Stupid Sheep for him.What is LOVE? I had lose myself... From know untill not understanding,LOVE is too complicated.I doubted that both of us also don know about love.Each time i want to tell u about my feeling,I stop myself.I afraid to express myself in front of u,and become ur burden.

U said that u will visit my blog when u got free time...I don care u'll visit or not.I rather if u have some leisure hour,u could accmpany me... Dont let me feel I'm alone... That feeling is BAD. I don care other people laughing or scolding me stupid,because I'm really yours Stupid Sheep.But, please... dont let me become stupid for everyone...

I'm appreciate that people who had read my diary... Thanks Q~
Sorry for stopped for more than a week... I got some unfortune and busy day recently.
Well,bad things don't need to review again... :P

Where R U ~~ ??

Tonight...

Sadness had came by my side,accompany me to go through this lonely night...

My soul is empty. My temperature is cold. My mind is blank.

All of this,just because tonight...

Unsafety feeling is the main character tonight.

I know I'll never love this way again...

This is the sound from radio told me...                           Will I?      

I really not sure that should we continue our relationship.My cell phone had down,the only way we are being connected.This is not the first time i'm thinking about it.Perhaps u really don't care about this.Or perhaps I'm too silly,pretend to lie on myself.If all of this is just a dream,I want to wake up now.Love in not the thing that wait for u to care when u're FREE.For me,love is not everything,but is a part n parcel of life.I care about each part of my life.Maybe we should have the last pace?The last n final thing that u can do for me if u still concern about me: Let me go... Will u do it? Maybe I cant forget u eventually... At least,U still get the chance back to find a more suitable person.I really cant stand when u keep ignoring me n treat me so cool.Dont say that u still love me while u r act like this.This may hurt me more even deeply.I wan to hate U,but,I'm failed...

Someday,If u saw this diary...I don know could we pass through this difficulty...Or will we still a couple...

I don know what will u react if that day happened.My tears... U'll never understand,U'll never concern... U had miss the responsibility of a boyfriend... What play in your mind?...

I miss U~ K.S.

U really is a bastard!!U... capricon!!

你有事吗？看来我帮不到你，唯有祝福你罢了！

Thanks Q o~

In the evening,my friend suddenly call me out for a drink.I'm so suprised that he will come to fetch me around my company. First time got people fetch me after work!! Then,we chat a lot in the car.He told me that he wan to start business recently.Through his words,I able to feel that he is so experienced and go through a lot of thing in his life.After that,we have a drink at A&W,Spectrum.He had taugh me plenty of social skill.Futhermore,he told me something from the dark side that i dont know before.He got experienced in applying the "pils"(ice,etc...)I'm not sure which he took.He told the side effect after taking this kind of drugs n how tough to stop this addict.N also about gengster,social illness... Also some topic about love n friend la~ :a1: For me,he is mature n able to think wisely,On the other hand,he got a bit childish.Maybe it is because of his unjoyful childhood.Lastly,of cause he sent me home la~   Then,SLEEP la!! very tired~

Wah~ It is June now.Not easy to go through oOOoO~ Hehe...Today our company treat us to go to sing-K in Neway,Berjaya Times Square.  Wahh~ Bravo!! I had quite a long time didnt have any entertainment already ler!!  GooD~ GooD~ Today,I dressed up myself.My colliages said that I'm QQ  ....wakakaka!!So joyful!!Then I wait for my HR manager to fetch us to there.Before we reach there,my manager want me to sing"lao shu ai da mi"to her!!:a1:  No problem la~In Neway,WAHhhHH~ Got a lot of delicious dishes n dessert!! I faster go to pick up some good stuff la... To cure my hungry stomach... *Gu..*Gu....*After eat,is time to sing...First song i sing is Fish Leong"yong qi"...Unluckily,I cant sing well!! I duet with my colliage and her rythme... Haizz~ Anyway,nevermind,I sing another song!!  I don know who choose the song "I celebrate my love for U",I don care,just grab the mic n go ahead sing.Then only I know I duet with a stranger guy.Ok,never mind,just sing it!! When part of the song had turned me,I sang"When I make love to U~"Almost all of the guyzz at there...Wooh wooh~~  Very ''paiseh'' ler~ I just follow the lyrics mah!! I continued my song although .....Due to this song,I've got my SHOW times,HR manager praised me sing well!! Wakakaka~ But,inside the K-box,I'm the youngest...Luckily,I know all the songs they choose...I'm felt extremely cold inside there,till my teeth n hand keep on giggling~In addition,few of them got smoke!! My throat started felt uncomfortable~ About 11.30pm,I called my friend to fetch me home.If not,.....:9: don know how la!! Haha~ is the person who ''yum char'' with me yesterday la~ HuhhZzz~ Luckily,he can fetch me~ Once again,he took me to ''yum char''.This time is at the semi-hil beside the "small genting"hill~ He said that there can saw the KL's night view~6: We went to a mamak stall.He introduce me a new thing--- <Roti Salad>.Wahhaha~~:8: very delicious ooo~:8: Maybe u all also can try it next time.Only available at that mamak stall oo~(According to him)...Then,Once again,he fetch me back lolx~ He is a nice guy~ WHY? He watch me open the door and go inside to the house then only drive the car and leave...He is such caring person. He had built the personality now,just because of the previous day... It is a good to see my friend from bad change to BETTER~  Last but not least,:a1: I'm always will be his GOOD MACHI~:a1:  Friendship Forever,My friend,Ben~

Nothing to do today~:a6: Today is my "koala" life~!!:a3: U know that??:a7:

Today is the last day for the KLCC bookfest~<IMG alt="<img" src="./images/smilies/3.gif" border=0 smilieid="121"> Surely,I must go to there lolx~ I had spent more than RM100 to buy some books and a set of "Sailormoon" VCD.<IMG alt="<img" src="./images/smilies/13.gif" border=0 smilieid="134"> Hehe~It's cheap and worth~~!!Before that,I went to visit my grandma at the Hospital TungShin.She had been suffering from sickness for more than 2 years.<IMG alt="<img" src="./images/smilies/10.gif" border=0 smilieid="101">  What I can do for her... Is just spend more time to be with her and talk with her,so that she wont felt boring at all the time.<IMG alt="<img" src="./images/smilies/4.gif" border=0 smilieid="129">  After that,I went to Brands outlet @ F.O.S,Ampang Point to visit some of my old buddies~<IMG alt="<img" src="./images/smilies/3.gif" border=0 smilieid="121"> Nice to see them all!! Miss them a lot~<IMG alt="<img" src="./images/smilies/3.gif" border=0 smilieid="121"> Untill around 9.45pm,I decided to go home~ It's very tired today~ Going out by myself for whole day~<IMG alt="<img" src="./images/smilies/a1.gif" border=0 smilieid="105"> Good night~

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