Posted 2009/07/21 00:58, 分类:
July'09
Hey peeps! Living in Kampar isn't that boring to me. I can live without
Time Square, Sungai Wang, GreenBox, and so on. Also, I learned to live
without McD and TV. Sounds awesome, isn't? Well, the only thing I could
not ever learn to live without is my Familia. In fact, I missed them SO
much every night. I even cried for that sometimes, honestly. There are
billion of words from me to them, but I just could not say it out.
Since I had moved to Kampar, my immune system turns off. I've got sick
at least once a month. Headache, flu, cough, fever and so on. I'm
forced to get myself awake in the middle of night, just to change the
wet towel that turns dry, to cover my high-temperature forehead. Rolling on the bed
over the night and hoping to get rid of the suffer from headache. Worst
come to worst, the assignment due date was around the corner. Group
assignment became tougher as 3 man power reduces to 2. With all the
sickness, i went to my group member's house for the editing of our
final work. It was nearly 10 at night. The only transportation I've got
is bike. I have to admit that it is freaking me out. The journey back
to my house took me around 20 minutes. Riding in the darkness, along
the road which besides the graves. The only thing came into my mind is
: Will I be able to reach home safely? The final answer was a YES. I'm
glad that I'm still alive. My fears and worries were not come to the
end after my foot steps on the floor of my room, where my secure
belongs to. No, it hadn't. My tear dropped madly as soon as I get to
lie on my bed. My hand was uncontrollably shaking and my leg! All the
receptors on my body was dysfunction at that moment. I doubted if i
could move. I refused to answer the calls from the irresponsible
person. At the moment before, I thought I am going to lost my most
treasured belongings - family,him and friends. My mind was out of
control by thinking of the previous scene. It was so dark and extremely
dark. I could have get into something really bad. A call had been
returned to Justin, to let him knows that i am fine, after calming down
my voice. My apologizes for leaving you stay in worries. Please don't
ever let my family know about this if you saw this thread. They've
enough troubles during life, especially my mom and dad. I aim to
express and share my feelings here, yet not to burden anyone. Well, it
comes to the assignment deadline. There are only me and her present in
the class among 3 of us. There is a few seconds I've been thought of
not putting the person name on our assignment work. We've done a open
discussion or so-called "advice" before hand, saying that if anyone of
us do not know on how to do the assignment, PLEASE voice up or seek for
help. Things end up with someone was not taking initiative move.
However, his name still appeared in our assignment. To be fair in
telling the situation, i should say, all the cost were barred by him
alone with his willingness. Perhaps, the purpose of tertiary study is
different among us. I am kinda disappointed. I thought I should trust
on people, they might be telling the truth. Chances had been given.
Outcomes were shown. What should I think of? Pretend nothing happened?
Don't be silly. You're not the one which got into a harsh time. You are
still a friend of mine. But, when it comes to works, ... That's all.
I isn't that boring here. Classes are all during the day. At night, I
often cooked for myself, for instance, spaghetti, bread and sauces,
maggie, fried mee and so on. My culinary skills might not be that
perfect, but the foods are still edible. Okie, to be honest, some of
the dishes taste not so good. At least, it can keep me full. The only
thing that I quite neglect is that I have to wash the equipments even
before I started to cook. Hope you get what I mean here. If I'm really
not in the mood of cooking, I might just heading to some restaurants. I
prefer food which is higher temperature for my dinner. After having my
meal and shower, I studied on my notes. "Practice makes Perfect." Quote
this. I learned from previous lesson. Study earlier rather than last
minute, if you plan to go further. You wouldn't forget the lesson if
you keep on repeating on weekly basis. Well, by doing so, i think we
wouldn't need to suffer that much during midterm or any pop quiz.
You're right, Mr. Tan. Quoted " Take the initiative move" in "what so
ever" (quote again) condition. Don't wait till the last minute or till
someone ask you to do so.
I got upset recently, once again. Arguments within group are good in
some ways like building a better understanding relationship, developing
a better assignment and so forth. Perhaps, I'm not well in neither
persuading nor negotiating with others. Yet, I knew the expectation of
the authority according to the past experiences. How am I suppose to
persuade? I am also clear about how the group works. Group members have
to decide on which style of group controlling they prefer. Most of the
groups would choose democracy as their preference. It means that when
majority say A, then A will be the final decision, regardless of the
consequences. All of the group members will have to bear with it. In
case that you do not understand my explanation, lets use the example in
NS. When one of the wirawati(s) had stolen money from another wirawati,
all of the wirawati(s) will be punished if there is no one admitting to
the crime. It's all about team co-operation. Work as team, gain the
result as team. There is another issue which get me into confusion.
Before discuss on this, I must apologize if I had misunderstood
someone. It was a group work. Our final report has to be in APA format
and the content must be summarized or paraphrased from the original
resources. I'm not sure if APA format is taught during the foundation
year in the university. The alternative options of getting know APA
format is to retrieve from web learning sites, library, and text books.
When doing research, we need to put some effort on doing some reading
and searching on information. 'Copy and Paste' is considered as plagiarism in education level of university. APA style should include
in-text citation and reference list. There is a compulsory oral presentation after the submition of our report. Therefore, it is very important to understand the content of the report. If we, ourselves, do not understand the content, how should we expect our audience to understand as well? Since I am doing the editing job, I need to do some checking on the original resources. It shocked me! The content from the original resources and from your .doc file is exactly the same. I wonder why. Don't I make my point clear? I do not wish to make a scene as you are still having others assignment to work on. But, I do hope that we could discuss about this after all the assignment were done.
I knew the effects of taking medicine. I rather eat healthier than taking medicine. At least. i am awake to work on our assignment. I really wish to achieve excellent grade in most of our assignment, even though it worths only 20-30 marks. Yet, it means a lot for me. I had a commitment. I keep on wondering HOW at time. "There are numbers of options available, but it is not for everyone. You have to choose among the options that are available for you." Quoted from my best friend, Han Yi. Some of the options, we could not afford, although we are qualified; And some others options, we could afford, but the pathway is tougher than usual. Once you have chosen your way, try your best to work on it. There might be obstacles in future, but need not to afraid. Recognize our goals, keep moving!
During this 3 years, I learned. My life goes from top of the hills and to deep down to the valley, repeatedly. I realized that life is always in that way, up and down. You might feel vulnerable at this moment. And it is very deep in the black hole. Times when you do know about your future or times when you about to/has already been give up. It won't be in this way for the rest of your life. There is no time frames of your recovery as it is difference between us. Just be patient. You'll be cured.
Frankly, I learned from the negative side more than postive during my study in THE university. Well, anyway, it is a way of learning too. This is the option that I can afford.
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2009/07/21 00:58
2009/07/21 00:58
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